Acts of Random Thoughts Vol. 1

I want a peaceful night of sleep where i don't wake up


I find myself addicted to Matlock. I watch it every morning that i don't have to work or have off. My day starts after that show goes off.


I love movies with messages. The last one that i watched was The Men Who Stare At Goats and i currently watching 7 Pounds at work during my lunch breaks.


Watching couples out in public makes me sad from time to time


Today is an old friend's b-day.


My new work motto is : I am only one person and i'm going to control what i can control. I'm going to do things to the best of my ability and most importantly not stress myself


i want to write something meaningful. i think i lost my mojo.

I don't' know why, but for some reason i like this song but then again i like alot of music that Ryan Leslie creates.

Excerpts from yesterday

I recently found a little black book i had completely forgotten about. i had chalked it up to something that i lost a long time ago. But fishing through my dad's glove compartment i found this moleskin book. Currently that is a trendy thing for fellow artist that i knew to bring with them. Whether it's to a sketch sessions on Tues nights or just to take out with you in general because they're pocket size. My friend Eva [in Austria] had given it to me as a gift roughly around the time started working at Old Navy. So you can imagine how long ago that was. A year later somewhere along the way in 2003/2004 i lost it. I thought someone had picked it up, thumbed through it and kept it or even worst tossed it away. Instead if drawing in it, i used it to wrote poems. I wouldn't call them just any poems but real gritty in the moment words and thoughts that i felt. Yesterday, glad as i could be i thumbed through it again remembering that i had lost some of my best work. here's a quick example of what i was referring to.

Untitled

I examine my words

Before i give flight to them and allow them to fly like birds

Close the pages of your romance novels

Allow the book to rest

I'm going to take your mind on a true journey at best

No more exotic summaries of tales of how love should be, could be or would be

Or tales of rippling muscular guys sensitively seductively taking ladies to place of ecstasy

In no such pages will you find me

Chivalry isn't dead and it doesn't rest in the pages of a book

it's right before you so remember the truth is always the last place you look

Allow me to define within you what romance is

I'll keep the spark alive when others have burnt out and fizz

As we write our own sexual stories together

Passionate nights filled the rumbling of thunder and lightening in the clearest of weathers

ill kiss your mentally with lips that will give birth to imagination

And touch your heart with words that will breathe creation

i remember the girl in question was entranced with romance novels. Feeling a little inadequate and wanting to prove myself i wrote that one.

words on my dear friend Art

I'm a certifiable quote junkie. I love quotes and hard to believe they always don't have to be movie or pop culture either. They just have to be moving and insightful. I was write a friend not to long ago and i tried to fish through a book of quotations that i have to give her some inspiration. We all need some inspiration from time to time and i stumbled upon the topic of art. Since that is something that's near and dear to me i thought i would share some of those thoughts with you.

the object of art is to give life shape - Jean Anouilh

art is a jealous mistress - Ralph Waldo Emerson

All art is autobiographical; the pearl is the oyster's autobiography - Federico Fellini

Art does not reproduce the visible; rather, it makes visible - Paul Kee

A work of art has no importance whatever to society. it is only important to the individual - Vladimir Nabokov

All art is at once surface and symbol. Those who go beneath the surface do so at their peril - Oscar Wilde

Knowledge of a Redbelt Master

Sometimes you find things at the moment exactly when you need it. I've been on vacation for a while and hopefully these quotes that i've learned will help me out when i go back to work. But not just that but life as well:

There's always an escape

A man distracted is a man defeated

There is no situation you could not escape from. You know the escape

Copetition is weakening

Norfolk Drawing Group #58

I know i sound like a broken record but i hate missing the group. I feel that i'm always out of sync every time i go along to draw. It's my own fault most of the time after being to tired after work to hang out and simply socialize. I slowly drifted out of my funk into my normal self.

cherie: blowing bubbles

Yet another friend of a friend photo that i borrowed. i had planned a more extrangant drawing but for now this simple color pencil sketch will do. I can always come back to it later.

She could still feel his touch (pic & sketch)

There's always seems to be a story that connects my pieces together. This story starts of by our lovely connection/networking media myspace. My friend, Cara like i can believe almost every other female out there received a friend request from a complete stranger. Sharing the typical i think we should be friends and i could use you as a model word vomit at sounds sincere if you're 12. The only positive thing that came out of this situation is that i was able to raid of some of modeling photos. He's not an attractive guy which would probably explain why in the final artwork pieces they phased him out. However he is muscular and for most women that are attracted to physics he will fill their fantasies.

This is my very rough attempt out telling my own story with those photo. Sometimes in love and relationships it's more about the feeling of love. You like someone not because of the way their hair is cut or the car they drive but because they are themselves. it may seem no matter of weight gaining or horrible stories about the past will change that because physic change but the thought of love doesn't. So when all is said and done and those type of feelings are still there and the person you love isn't then you have a void [ this void].

madlib (revisited)

Something just didn't sit right with me the last time i did a sketch of him. I strive for perfection of something extremely close to it therefor i did it again.

Scales of life

I know it's been a while since i wrote a meaning blog. Let along write anything of great importance here. Somehow i feel like sharing my experience. Last week i had lunch with a friend of mine and it's amazing how sometimes we get so trapped in our own personal hurricane that we forget about others are going through things as well. i won't share to much of my friend's story but he quit his job, he's unable to pay rent, and his daughter is coming to live with him full-time now. All those things hit one after another like domino's in a row. The pessimistic side of me say that's horrible lucky and he should rightfully crawl underneath a rock and stay there. However i don't believe in that side at all. I know it sounds silly and foolish to have such beliefs but everything happens as it should. He quit his job because deep down inside that wasn't where he was suppose to be. Rarely do i say this myself but i believe that hands (Gods/HIS Hands) push us in directions that we all fear because it seems like a risk. I know as sure as my fingers type this he will struggle but struggling is a part of life. Pressure creates diamonds. How else is my friend to know what he can bare if he doesn't go through this situation?

My final thought is of encouragement. I encourage anyone who thinks they are having a bad day to weight their problems against others. Perhaps that horrible day, month, year that you've been having isn't that bad at all?

Interesting Facebook tidbit to think about via Mr. Sibbaluca

Kris Sibbaluca relationship question of the day: if you treated your relationship like a marriage how soon would you be getting a divorce ? Think about it, people break up all the time, so if your not in it for the long haul what's the point. ( revised )
October 20 at 5:27pm · Comment · Like

Kate Frost (pic & sketch)

What things i love about halloween.. scary movies

Sarah: Hope (Cancer Awareness Month)

Eva: intimate study

Brigitta Callens

Norfolk Drawing Group # 57.. color pencil study

Last Nights Party (pic & Sketch)..

These movies makes me think about the past

Her Janet Pose

" Tabetha : the Reader" (pic & sketch)

great minds think alike

Monday, September 28, 2009

It slowly kills me.
I'm not in the mood of doing anything, really. It aches, it gets me tired, it just gets me feeling blue - and I want it to go away! Now, please! If I could I would cut it all off. It's just plain boring to have this feeling. I'm not in the mood - just because it kills me slowly - it drains everything out of me.
See you later!/Anna
Posted by Anna kl. 11:28

Rachel & Katsuni (terracotta study)

I'm the Clint Eastwood type

Yesterday at work i bumped into a mutual friend that i know from other store. She pulled me aside to tell me that my friend was hurt that because i've been a little distant. Perhaps i have but as i tried to explain i need my space to grow. I sleep very few hours at a time, my mind races often, and i enjoy the solitude. Last night i left work at 11pm which is common factor that i can't stand while closing on the weekend. I was went to Walmart and stumbled upon the martial arts film Blood and Bones. I Finally finished it in the early hours of the morning i realized one thing: I like being the dark mysterious type of person. The guy who walks into town and no on really knows why but has a single purpose to accomplish. Which i guess would explain why i like western movies as quote often the main character doesn't have a name just a purpose. Once his job is done he rides out the same way he rode in town. I remember a quote that sums up this theory of being unable to be tamed:
'I'm as playful as the wind"
In an attempt to improve myself i have deactivate my Facebook account and now i see Myspace will be the next to follow. Honestly this is yet another tool that consumes my daily activities that i don't need. My basic understanding of these networking mediums is that they take more than they give. Also i take a look back on my past blogs and i realize that my thoughts flood the entrees more than my artwork. I didn't create this blog to vent my frustrations (that's what journals are for) therefor i'm eliminating the words portion. I'm not sure if it will be permanent or now but artwork only for the time being. I have some books to read and movies to watch so filling my spare time will not be hard.

Norfolk Drawing Group #56

i've skipped almost a months worth of drawing groups due to work. Someone it just seemed like i was the chosen one that had to close on Tues nights, gee thanks! I missed out so much that I seriously thought about skipping this night as well. I once heard that once you get out of the habit of doing things it only becomes easier to come up with every imaginable excuse to prevent yourself from continuing. This Tues night wasn't a bad night nor a good night just a night away from work. That single idea made it better than normal.

There are some of my random thoughts:

I want to save everyone from hurting the way i have, but i can't save myself

movie trailers lie: cut the trailer the way the movie is not what you want the movie to be

i'm tired of waiting on people to do things, it just works out for the best if i do the solo.

i try to draw everyday but still i'm scared to exhibit the mounds of work i've collected

i pay to much money in rent

i need a haircut

i'm trying to figure out if i like my job or do i just tolerate it

i can rational everything out expect my own emotions and responses

i slept to much on my days off and i know the reason why

i hate hearing updates from people that do more harm than help : "hey you remember her, well she has a new boyfriend now and they're in love ." thanks for ruining my day !!

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i was having a bad day today but this sketch makes me laugh...

Sam & Sam

This is a quick incomplete sketch of Sam in Dahlia Purple. I don't know why exactly i chose this shade of purple maybe because it's one of her favorite colors. Of all of the many pictures that i have of Sam i like this one the best because it shows how vulnerable she is. Without giving to much away of her personal life, she has been through alot and continues to go through alot as well. Still in her darkest moments she laughs, jokes and plays. Incredible?

This yet another Sam. I know to many of them. I rarely use graphite and for looking at this sketch i can see how unpolished i am at using it. I consider Sam fascinating because she actually is one of the few associates that i work with that has an art background. Even though photography seems to be her calling, in our brief exchanges we can talk art related topics not folding denim. I wish her well on her journey as an artist.

madlib (pics & sketches)

It goes without saying that i listen to alot of music. Most of the music that i listen to is instrumental drive because it allows me to think freely and draw. I can always focus on certain words or actions and feel better about myself or what's going on around me. I discovered the artist Madlib on a whim of sorts and over the years i've been collecting more and more of his music. I feel that his beat driven music allows me to tap into the side that sees the world differently. My gift as an artist allows me to view the world in a light that only a few get a chance to give a glimpse to. I believe that we all have this driving force within us that grows hungrier each and every day. But if it's isn't ignored it grows dim. So i guess mine is to draw and his would be to create music.

I challenge everyone to do something creative today if not just to free your mind.


honor and respect
tommy

Vampires don't wear glitter (pic & sketches)

Before i get started i do want to say i didn't not read Twilight the book but i did watch the movie. I blogged about it previous about being curious about the plot and a large popular of girls being attracted to this movie. I didn't get it but curiosity forced me to watch the movie. I wasn't blown away to the point that i thought i should keep it another night after 1 Redbox rental. I did see what most females loved or liked about the movie. I'm not a complete movie snob to point that out, however i did see something horribly wrong with the movie. I know i'm spoiling it but these vampires in this movie did not burn in the sunlight. They shined and shimmered like disco balls in 1970s and that was beyond humorous. To the point that this art piece created itself. I struggled with the image beyond belief. I spend a little more than 2 months trying to crave out Edward's main features. I wanted to give up and i did plenty of other sketches in the mean time but i felt this one needed closure. So as i plastered glitter onto his face yesterday i knew i was done. I've thought i've seen a lot of macho things in vampire movies but glitter is not one of them. Remember that?!